Dream

– April 2020 –

It is nighttime, and I am sitting in an armchair in an empty room, gazing into space. My attention is drawn to a pair of women standing to my left. They are pointing to my chest. I look down and notice a large, bright jewel sitting over my heart. I am surprised—I have never seen it before.

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Intrigued by this jewel, several days later I bring it to mind. As I do so, a sensation begins to stir in my chest. At first, it is vague and elusive—a slight awakening of an area that has long felt like a locked cage. I remain mindful and curious, allowing the feeling to emerge. It stirs, shifts, disappears, and reappears. And then, without warning, a wave of the most wonderful love bursts from my heart and floods my body from head to foot. I am transfixed with wonder.

Where did this love come from? I do not need to know. For, although the experience soon fades, I sense that something has shifted. Even though I have been to the very edge of what I feel I can endure—mentally, emotionally, spiritually—I realise that beneath the despair lies an aspect of me that has remained pure and untouched.

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